The
King In The Field
By
Tzvi Jacobs
It
was just before noon, September 1, 1989. I was driving through a seedy
section of downtown Elizabeth, New Jersey and spotted a branch of my
bank. I parked in the deserted lot behind the bank, walked around to the
front entrance, and then remembered that I left my check in my car. I
trotted back, unlocked the car door, and while leaning inside, fumbled
through an assortment of papers and bills that filled my coat pocket.
Thank G-d, I found the envelope with my precious monthly stipend. I had
already spent most of it, having mailed out a slew of checks the day
before to pay some long overdue bills. I laid my coat back over the
seat, straightened up, and turned to close the car door.
“Ugh!”
I gasped.
Three
men had formed a tight semi-circle around me. They wore tattered jeans,
filthy tee-shirts and they reeked of alcohol. The man on my left was
clutching the skinny neck of an empty whiskey bottle, bottom aimed
upward. It looked as if he was going to hammer something... or someone.
His dark, glassy eyes revealed a mean, desperate gaze. The scrawny guy
on my right looked almost friendly, but a little scared and hungry. But
the one in the middle — he was “Lurch,” a virtual monstrosity. His
large, rectangular head loomed above me.
“Got
some change?” Lurch asked, extending his huge hand towards the
Adam’s apple bobbing up and down my thin neck. My bulging eyes stared
down at the maze of lines in his palm and slowly read their way up his
extended arm. A skull with crossed bones and a variety of other subhuman
depictions adorned his long bare arm. At the top of his arm, the ragged
edges of a torn sleeve accentuated his broad shoulder. I nervously
tilted my head back and lifted my eyes over his protruding chin. A deep
scar had formed a trench from his chin to just below his left eye. Lurch
grinned. His smile was missing at least three teeth.
“Like
a couple of dollars,” said the guy with the empty bottle. “We’re real
hungry.”
Rules
of urban survival raced through my head. Never take out your
wallet when a stranger asks for change. These guys probably saw me
walking back from the bank. If they see that my wallet is empty, they
might really get upset.
Another
rule: Stay calm. I took a deep breath. Why is this happening to me?
Okay, everything happens for a reason. All is for the good. Only fear
G-d. All the Chassidic dictums about life were racing through my
mind. They made sense in yeshiva, where I had been learning for
the past year.
“Stay
calm,” I repeated to myself. After all, today is Rosh Chodesh Elul,
the first day of the month of Elul. Elul is an auspicious month,
the last month of the Jewish year, when G-d is supposed to be accessible
to everyone. As the Chassidic masters explain, like the king who leaves
his palace and travels through the fields, G-d makes Himself more
accessible and graciously listens to the requests of ordinary people.
Oh,
G-d, please be with me now. I have a wife and a three-month-old baby.
My
hands were hiding behind my back, clutching the envelope, and holding
the nearly shut car door.
“Yes,
I have some change for you,” I said, subtly dropping the envelope back
into the car, locking the door behind me.
Everything
happens for a reason — that I firmly believed. Every Friday, as part
of the yeshiva schedule, I would visit Jewish patients in
Morristown Memorial Hospital. I looked at these men. Who says I have to
go to the hospital to visit the sick? I knew it was next to impossible,
but maybe...
“Are
any of you Jewish?” I asked, rather meekly.
“Yeh.
I’m Jewish,” the Lurch said.
“You’re
Jewish?” I said, in disbelief. It must be a ploy. “You have a Jewish
name?”
Pulling
his head high with pride, like a foot soldier responding to his
commanding officer, Lurch said, “Shmuel Yankel ben Moshe,” declaring
his Jewish name, the son of Moshe. In his eyes, I probably looked like a
rabbi, with my black hat and long, untrimmed beard.
“Did
you have a bar mitzva?” I asked.
“Uh
huh.”
“You
had a bar mitzva? Where?”
“In
Asbury Park. Rabbi Carlebach bar mitzva’d me.”
“Wow,
you are Jewish!” I had heard of Rabbi Yossi Carlebach, the
Lubavitch emissary in that part of New Jersey.
“Of
course I’m Jewish. Boruch ata ado... melech ha’olam...”
Lurch,
or should I say Shmuel Yankel, was chanting the blessing for the Haftora
which he had recited for his bar mitzva maybe 20 years earlier.
The short, wiry man slapped the whiskey bottle against his palm. I
trembled. I had better try to appease him.
“Hey,
why are you asking for change?” I asked. “You should be asking for
millions. Today is exactly one month before Rosh HaShana, the
Jewish New Year, and you can ask G-d for as much as you want. A month
before Rosh HaShana, G-d leaves his palace and comes down in the streets
with the people, and we can ask Him for anything now. As a matter of
fact, G-d is feeling gracious towards us now. I’ve got a little change
in my pocket — I’m just a student at a rabbinical seminary — but
G-d, why, He has billions.”
As
I spoke, I slipped the car key out of my back pocket. Keeping my right
hand behind me, I unlocked the car door and reached for a bag on the car
seat.
“Shmuel
Yankel, do you know what these are?” I asked, as I unzipped a black
velvet bag and took out two small boxes. He vigorously nodded, with his
big toothless smile, as if I were showing him some delectable candy.
“Are
you right-handed?” I asked, quickly unwrapping the leather straps from
around the t’fillin box. “Good, now put out your left arm.”
I slid the open loop of the arm t’fillin over his large fist,
up his bare arm, past the chorus line of tattoos and — what’s this?
A patch of little holes, at the top of the forearm, near the inside of
the elbow.
“Oh,
my G-d,” I said to myself, “those must be needle tracks. He’s
really fallen low.”
I
slipped off my yarmulke from beneath my hat. “Here, Shmuel
Yankel, let me put this on your head so you can say the blessing with
me.” He leaned over so I could reach the top of his head.
“Now,
repeat after me. Baruch ....”
I
said each word of the blessing and he repeated after me. Then I
tightened the knot around his upper arm, and wrapped the t’fillin
strap around his arm, trying my best to cover with the leather t’fillin
straps some of the unseemly tattoos. As I wound the leather strap around
his forearm, I explained that the arm t’fillin is bound around
the upper arm, next to the heart, to show that our actions must be
heartfelt and bound to G-d.
“Now,
Shmuel Yankel, lower your head, and I’ll put the other box of t’fillin
on your head. The head is above the heart, to teach us that our head
must rule and direct the desires of the heart.
“Hold
out your hand again.” I wrapped the strap of the hand t’fillin
around the ring finger. “This shows we are married to G-d. Our head,
heart, and actions must all be united with G-d.”
The
guy with the bottle had been pacing back and forth on the asphalt, like
a hammerhead shark swimming in front of his prey. “Let’s do
something already,” the shark finally snapped.
“You
just wait,” Shmuel Yankel snapped back. “Can’t you see I’m
prayin’!”
The
shark backed off like a guppy. He dropped his bottle on the asphalt and
kicked it into the weeds.
I
gulped. “Before a Jew can pray to G-d, Who considers every single Jew
his child, we must accept upon ourselves the commandment to love our
fellow Jew. We say the following words: ‘Behold - I accept - upon
myself - the positive - commandment – ve’ahavta – le’reacha -
kamocha.’
“That
means ‘you shall love your fellow man as yourself.’ Now cover your
eyes with your right hand – like this – and we’ll say the Sh’ma
prayer. Sh’ma Yisroel Ado-nai Elo-heynu Ado-nai Echad (Hear O
Israel, the L-rd is our G-d, the L-rd is One).”
Shmuel
Yankel wiped his eyes with his hand. They were wet with tears.
“G-d
is right here with you, Shmuel Yankel,” I said, with a choked voice.
“Ask Him whatever your heart desires.”
Shmuel
Yankel was silent, but I could almost hear his heart sobbing. A tear
rolled down from his eye into the deep scar along his cheek.
“I
used to go to synagogue all the time,” Shmuel Yankel said. “I liked
going. But after my bar mitzva, my parents got divorced and I
didn’t go anymore.”
During
this entire parking lot ceremony, the long-haired guy stood quietly,
motionless. He looked mesmerized. Why?
“What’s
your name?” I asked.
“Mike,”
he said with a slurred French accent. “My friends call me Mike. But my
real name is Michel.”
“Michel,
are you Jewish?” I knew that it was highly unlikely, but he had that
longing look in his eyes.
“No,
I’m Catholic,” he said. “I don’t really practice it anymore.”
“It’s
okay whatever you are. G-d created everybody, and made everyone
unique.”
“My
mother,” Michel said hesitatingly, “my mother told me she was born
Jewish. When she was a little girl, the Nazis killed her parents and
some nuns took her into their monastery and raised her. So she became
Catholic.”
“Michel,
you’re Jewish!” I exclaimed. “If your mother was born Jewish, then
you’re Jewish. Nothing can take that away. Once a Jew, always a Jew.
It’s ingrained in the soul. Put these on and we’ll celebrate your bar
mitzva.”
I
was more nervous than Michel. Placing my yarmulke on his head, I
said, “Repeat after me. Baruch.”
“Bah
rook,” he said, with a shaky voice. It was obvious that he had never
uttered the Hebrew “ch” sound in his life. I excitedly put
the t’fillin on his arm and head. The black box sat on his
stringy black hair. His dark eyes twinkled and Michel looked like a
long-lost prince who had been dragged through the mucky alleys of
medieval Europe, beaten and abused, and now had finally stumbled back to
the gates of his royal home, crying out to his father, the king. The
king came out to the street, and Michel ran and hugged his loving
father.
Michel
repeated the words of the Sh’ma and stood silently with his
eyes closed for an endless minute.
“We
can take them off now,” I finally whispered.
Like
a helpless baby, Michel held out his arm and let me unwrap them.
I
couldn’t believe what was happening. The King must really be in the
“field.” Turning to the third guy, the shark-turned-guppy, I asked,
“And what’s your name?” “Joe,” he blurted out. His hands were
trembling.
Joe
had safely positioned himself about six feet away, in front of the hood
of my old Ford Galaxy. I was still standing by my car door.
“Is
your mother Jewish?”
“No!
She’s Catholic. My grandmother was Catholic. And I’m Catholic. And
I’m not putting those things on.”
“Don’t
worry, Joe. You don’t have to, you aren’t supposed to,” I said,
showing him that I was putting them back in their bag. “A gentile
doesn’t have to do this commandment. But non-Jews get a share in the
World to Come, just like a Jew does, if they follow the seven
commandments that G-d commanded them.”
I
then explained the Seven Noachide Laws, stuttering a
little when I stated the prohibition against stealing. “The only catch
is that a person has to observe these laws not because they make sense,
and not because he’s afraid he might get caught, but because G-d
commanded them to mankind, through Moses the Lawgiver.”
Joe
listened silently, with no visible response.
“Hey,
let’s celebrate Michel’s bar mitzva,” I said, breaking the
silence. “I have some cake in the car.”
Earlier
that morning I had attended a bris at the yeshiva in
Morristown, and since I had to leave early to drive my sister and her
children to Elizabeth, I took two pieces of cake from the bris meal
with me.
I
split the cake with Shmuel Yankel, Michel, and Joe.
“L’chaim.
To life,” I said, raising my cake.
I
told Michel what a great day it was for him, and how fortunate he was to
have put on t’fillin for the first time in his life. My two
Jewish friends thanked me for the bar mitzva, and we all shook
hands and said goodbye.
“Wait,
here’s some change,” I said, coming after them.
But
Shmuel Yankel raised his arm, strong and high, stopping me in my tracks.
“Thanks, but we’re okay. We’re okay.”
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